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lollipopzombie:

I’m starting to think that I’m of the very few females that

• doesn’t change her makeup / nail polish according to season
• doesn’t like yellow gold
• would rather have a pink sapphire than a diamond (unless its a pink but those are so expensive)

Ha- I never change my makeup or nail polish. x_x ever.

I HATE yellow gold. D: with a PASSION.

and my ‘dream wedding ring’ is platinum with blue and pink sapphires. :)

Haytharrr~

Last night I was told that a very close family friend of ours passed away. The details werent told to us then, we were just told he was gone. We were thinking accident, or something.. we werent sure. We heard rumors and stories.

I found out this morning that he took his own life.

I don’t know how to feel.. He could have gotten help. It was because his wife wanted a trial separation, she was holding the kids as pawns to get him to ‘try harder’ and ‘do better’. No matter what he did, it was never enough for her. He payed for her to go to a high end university, he moved them, got them a huge house, he worked his ass off because he wanted his kids to have a good life and for her to stop fighting with him- and it led to this.

I’m just really in shock. I know there have been countless occasions where I’ve considered ending my life, and just.. the way it makes me feel on the outside when someone else does it.. just… I don’t know.

I feel bad for my father. This was the second of his very, very close friends that have taken their lives.

The service is this Saturday, he was cremated, but I would like to give my respects. He respected me a lot, and always said he was my ‘#1 fan’. Always. Since I was 10, he’s said that..

RIP Red Hawk. You will be VERY, VERY missed.

and as a note to everyone: if you hear any hints from anyone about their thoughts of suicide, please don’t take them as a joke. It’s not, it never has been..